"The women are to be worthy of respect, not malicious talkers but temperate and trustworthy in everything."
1 Timothy 3:11
I really really really don't like the word malicious. If anyone ever described me as a malicious person I would absolutely be crushed by that! The word malicious means "intending to do harm".
I think it is pretty evident that I really do love to talk, but one thing that I have struggled with is talking too much. I think sometimes malicious talking comes from mindless talking. Talking just to talk. Or talking without thinking of the effects that you might be making on others.
I have really strived to be a Christ centered leader. This week as I was reading 1 Timothy 3, I came across this list of things that are basically good attributes of a Godly leader:
above reproach
temperate
self-controlled
respectable
hospitable
able to teach
not give into drunkenness
not violent but gentle
not quarrelsome
not a lover of money
and then I got to the "not malicious talkers" part. WOAH, hold up, because I do consider myself a "talker" but I never intend to hurt someones feelings. Do I? I hope not! These were some things that were going through my mind. I have really been praying to be more mindful of everything that comes out of my mouth. I truly only want to build people up, genuinely encourage the people that I am around most.
I do really love that list of things, when you look at each one individually they are really hard things to obtain. Yet Jesus is the perfect example of all of those things! Anyway, this post is kind of all over the place, but all in all I think it is time for me to be even more mindful of the things I say.
One more thing, there is one thing from high school that really bothers me. I was not a very trustworthy friend with information. One of my friends would tell me something, and before I knew it I would of told someone else. This really bothers me, I want to be THE BEST friend I can be. I think that this really ties into the whole watching what I say thing. I want to be a trustworthy friend.
Am I building someone up by what I am saying?
Am I speaking life?
Is this a true representation of who I am?
Just some things to think about...
This is a cute little picture of baby Marge. Isn't it kind of interesting to think that this was a point in my life where I had never said ANYTHING?! I had never said anything malicious! I'm going to pretend like today I am that little baby again! I just want a little bit of a fresh start :)
Amazed and Overcome
.talking with Mallory.
.kyle fabacher.
.my strong grandfather.
.everything finding a place.
.support wherever I go.
.the ability to take a final.
.thanksgiving (even though its a tease).
.the fact that christmas is almost here.
.pickup soccer games.
. the church I go home to.
